Ain't it fun, livin' in the real world?

After a week of graduation and living the life of a St. Norbert College Alumni (excuse me what did you call me?)  I have been asked about 16,392 times if I have a job. 99.9% of those times I've been at my lovely part-time job. So in my head I'm saying "yes and that's why I'm still working here, I love making no money" but really I say "no, but I'm looking". I get that people are just curious, but really, stop asking, I'll tell you once I'm on the fast track to being a millionaire.

In the mean time I've given up being jealous, mad, and stressed about not having a job, mostly because I've learned that you cannot stress about the future because it cannot be controlled. I've gained some great advice over the past week too, that is "you have the rest of your life to work". So I ask myself... why am I rushing it? Yes, I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to put my very expensive education to work and prove myself out there in the adult world but this is more than likely the last time I get to live at my parents' house with my cats and have time to actually enjoy hanging laundry on the line. I've heard time and time again how many people hate working and just want to retire already, so why can't I just enjoy these last three months of being a "college" student (which I will consider myself until the fall when classes begin again).

On the daily I look for and apply for jobs and just as quickly I receive that nasty "thanks, but no thanks" e-mail. I keep my hopes strong knowing that that position just wasn't for me and something greater is out there. Like I've had to repeat too many times... I'm not looking for just A job, I'm looking for a business job one specifically in international business so stop telling me to apply at McDonald's.

On the flip side, working part-time for now is awesome. It leaves so much time for activities and kitty cuddles. Staying up late and waking up without an alarm (besides Sugar kitty) are usually the perks of the day followed by breakfast in my pj's and spare time to watch The View. By no means am I trying to make all you real world working adults jealous because truly, being a stay at home mom with no kids gets lonely. I sit at home with no real human contact and wait hours for friends to go on lunch breaks and reply to my snap-chats.

So for the time being I'm living my last few moments doing whatever I please whenever I please. This type of life may seem appealing to most but no money means no real activities and leaves me searching for more. I feel like I have no real goal in life or passion to follow. The largest goal in my life has been completed and I had made no further plans to start another. I've tried to find a hobby but that search has came up dry. At the end of each day the only thing that is steady is my need for adventure. Road-trips, spontaneous plane tickets, and a life abroad, how perfect could it be? If only my head and my heart could line up, but for now we sit, wait, and search for the future that is impossibly perfect and unknown.